"The Body Never Lies"

"The Body Never Lies"

A Scandinavian woman told in a TV program how her head in a car accident hit the windshield, and she lost her memory from the previous nine years. She told us about the complicated rebuilding of her memory. She filled her reconstruction with doubt and mistrust directed both to herself and others. It took a long time because memory is an elusive individual phenomenon that also changes, for example, being stained in a problematic way to predict (which research has confirmed, e.g., in connection with witness psychology). 

A key point in the woman's story was that she had had a child under the lost memory period. She had no recollection that she was a mother. However, the word memory received a new dimension when she and her child confronted each other. The child rushed, at the reunion, spontaneously up to her mother and embraced her, overwhelmed by happiness. Then the woman felt how physical memory/recognition welled up in her body. Just as Alice Miller so brilliantly described it: "The body never lies." It has no fake/alternative news!

Primal circles consider my combination of PT and Rolfing with skepticism and warnings, but I have not understood why. The curative aim of Rolfing is, with deep physiotherapy, releasing blocked/fixed grown memories. They are physical manifestations/extensions which reinforce/defend the memory of repression of painful experiences (of varying types) back to the fetal period. The goal of Rolfing, to restore posture and fascia in harmony with gravity laws, has, in my case, freed several memories of painful (repressed) character. My body's memories have not lied to me. However, behind an unaware, abnormal physical deviation (a crooked spine, a stooped posture, blocked or shallow breathing, etc.), there has been a link to the experiences during early childhood and adolescence. When I / my body released / re-lived those memories, I became aware of the painful experiences, which I thank Primal Therapy, eventually have been able to enter, which meant access to experiences during my dramatic birth and hence to the root of my epilepsy. 

During a Rolfing treatment, the therapist asked why I wore my hat in a certain way because it affected my head posture. I had no prepared answers. Suddenly, I remembered how a former female partner and my father criticized me for being cocky and confident. This made me provocative, choose a style that was pretended to be easygoing and challenging, and this manner grew firm for decades and hid my underlying uncertainty. When I slowly dared to show my deep uncertainty (which was hidden first by ADHD and later by lifelong activity mania), my repressed memories from a 48-hour traumatic birthing gradually floated to the top and took over the role from my longstanding epilepsy symptoms. In my therapy process, spread over 40 years, two series of treatments, at 30-year intervals, with Rolfing, have played a crucial role in stimulating my re-living the process of my birth trauma. Here I want to emphasize the importance of the knowledge that I received from Art Janov in how evolution has developed a survival method to suppress pain, which was too extensive that a fetus could survive. I have internalized these insights into the Primal Principle, both in practice and theory, for several decades and on a few crucial occasions in contact with the inventor himself. Without my insights/knowledge from Dr. Janov, the meaning of my sessions of Rolfing had been significantly reduced. The same can evidently be said, regarding my sessions in PT/knowledge of the Primal Principle, unless Rolfing had been available.

The combined, natural, Janov / Rolf methods have given me a less neurotic life with good health/good vital signs, and I am now capable of a moderate pace. I have re-evaluated several of my activities. Music got no active place during my first 75 years, though I listened. When I now work with my tenor sax, I realize how my body and psyche still create blockages/tensions, which were initially meant to hold off the explosive pain from my birth. In woodwind, producing a relaxed sound, transposing, and going from classical music to jazz swing is not without problems for most youngsters. For a 77-year-old neurotic with built-in tensions, it is an extra challenge. The rhythmic issues haunt me, sometimes, into my sleep. During REM sleep, my father or former female partners may appear and criticize my activities, and my immediate pain takes me, through an awakening, infallibly into my birthing. Nowadays, re-living remnants of the birth process is a piece of cake, however painful and wordless. The re-living means after a few days that my tenor-swing sounds better (and that I, hopefully, am less torturing my neighbors ….).

The body never lies... Alice Miller wrote about it, and Ida Rolf treated the physical effects. Art Janov has, over the past 50 years, practically and theoretically proved the same. However, with his own suffering, AJ has outperformed the academic/intellectual world when he skillfully and innovatively informed and treated us of the consequences of the two-headed nature of evolutionary repression. Repression is a lifeguard for the sensitive fetus/child. However, at the cost of later/future wear and diseases, the organic body system is the weakest/most worn.

Jan Johnsson