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Finding Soul Mates On Different Levels.
There are few things that are so enjoyable and satisfying as when we find a soul mate, whether it be an author of reflections, an old girlfriend from 50 years ago or when the prefrontal cortex and subcortex meet and when our lower imprints have found their other half in the nervous system. “Once joined, they form an integrated unified circuit”.
When I read your section about “the awareness of lack of oxygen during birth or of the agony of being twisted around due to breech delivery there are no words to explain it”, I realized that this is the reason why it is so hard for me to write about my primal experiences in technical, neurological terms, “how the connection process between lower and higher levels is racing through the stages of all of human history”. Thank you for guidance also in this respect!
After a few years of training I can appreciate to read about the neurologic and psychologic facts being processed. However, it is still hard to create a feeling / concept of a natural / automatic association between my feelings of a dramatic birth experience and my subsequent description in technical / intellectual terms. The words are not enough. It takes a deeply knowledgeable researchers report to be able to get close.
My birth was, as I said, a nasty dramatic experience which meant agony and pain and that eventually led to concentration problems and neuroses that, in the late teenage years, developed into epilepsy, which became a social stigma. The fact that I was squeezed hard, anesthetized, turned and pulled out the tail first, and was nearly strangled by the umbilical cord has received all the attention in my stories. However, the fact that my brain (though not fully developed) also received positive imprints and memories of vital importance from this dramatic and complicated process that ended successfully has been overlooked. My epilepsy and anxiety have (for > 50 years) been compensated by a subconscious desire / feeling that it is possible to solve my pain / epilepsy and / or understand it.
Gradually, as I experienced primals and understood the connection between my miserable birth process and my epilepsy, the more I got to experience how my lower imprints, both those which caused my epilepsy and those which carry positive memories of my survival during the birth process, have found their other halves in the nervous system. I have for years had a growing feeling that they have formed an integrated unified circuit. Nowadays, when I get stuck in my dreams, I / my brain figure out how to change and dissolve my locking, or I wake up to “lay back and feel the stab of anxiety” and thus let the integrated unified circuit relive unfelt pain and continue my/its cure.
The Primal Therapy has the potential to join our lower imprints with their other half in the nervous system and to form an integrated unified circuit!
Jan Johnsson
Dear Jan,
Thank you for your letter.
It is very brillant, as usual.
My best,
Art
Your comments about having positive imprints about your birth experience is great to hear. While I suspect that I did have a bad birth I had not thought about how it could also be a positive experience. I suppose I got out. I often find that I get overwhelmed by stress in life and then maybe have a rest or do something else for a while but at the last moment I always seem to manage to pull the Cat out of the bag and be successful with things.