What happened to me when I could feel the love I was denied?

Janov's Reflections SUNDAY, JULY 8, 2012   (Click to access!)

What Happens to Us When We Were Not Loved

My comment:

What happened to me when I could feel the love I was denied?

Eventually, I felt free and cured. I could leave my prison of pain and understand/fill the gap between feelings/sensations and their psychological counterpart. And the cure put an end to a lifelong suffering of seizures, hallucinations and numerous other symptoms all over my then disintegrated body. 

I write in first person because I think, contrary to the common misunderstanding in psychiatry, that there are no two stories that are identical, we are all unique. That is/was in my experience one of Art’s most important skills that he treated me as an individual and not as a standard case to fit into a treatment manual. His approach;  “without my patients, I’m nothing - I can just guide - I have my limits - only the patient knows the reason for his stigma/pain”  took me through 40 years of sensational primal history, and my imprint / pain told me with ever greater ease its / my story.

I have during my long primal journey often been / felt alone with my long- lasting and exceptional treatment. The inventor’s, Art Janov, spirit was my “only” active support, though he was 6000 miles away. To be honest, my epileptic stigma was of such a caliber that I had no option, but to give up, to choose from. After my first sensations of a birth primal (in Januar 1980) my conviction of being on the right track was so strong that it stayed with me until today and took me through times of interruptions driven by practical and neurotic priorities.

It is important to tell about the positive impact that the repeated relief of my repressed pain and anxiety over all these years has had. It was not the pain and anxiety which were the bad during my birth (they saved my life!). It was the loveless treatment, I was given, that was evil. Evolution has a short term remedy to save us when love is not given the proper way, when we need it. The conclusion of that is that loveless ness is a plague as old as the human brain. (Hence the dominant cognitive psychology Corps in its often stupid actions is a natural evolution in order to give short term remedies...).

Finally, after my long primal cure, I have stopped worrying about that so few people are interested in my primal history. I’m satisfied to guide a few people  I care about. I do it in a natural way and when they ask for it. Maybe I have finally got it all together - understanding the Janovian gap - to be able to help others fill their gap. Only time will show.

The difference between stupidity and genius is that genius has its limits.  - Albert Einstein

Jan Johnsson